I got a wake-up call this week. My oncologist left me a message that he is recommending a bone scan due to my liver panel being off, twice. I knew this fact would warrant another test of some sort. However, to date, the testing was at the recommendation of my primary care physician. So, to have my oncologist call to ask me to have a bone scan left my jaw on the floor and caused an avalanche of unexpected tears.
Mind you, I am TIRED! My first week back at work has been a blessing and a curse. Looming deadlines and stalled grant projects lead to a roller coaster of fire drills that I am making my way through. No worries. The pressure of grant deadlines has helped to keep my mind occupied.
Truth be told, I have been expecting to learn that I have weak bones due to chemo. The fact that these tests are off could be an indicator of any number of things. We are thinking positive.
I told my husband this morning that I think the fact that I have to have a bone scan is a good wake-up call. We both need to live a healthier lifestyle because like it or not, I am living the life of a cancer survivor. These tests will always mean a little bit more. I will probably always feel like I have dodged a bullet.
Today, I actually scheduled the bone scan for Tuesday, April 26. And as positive as I may sound, I have to admit that my nerves are on fire. There are butterflies in my stomach and I cannot sit still. Nothing that lunch with a girlfriend and another grant deadline can't cure though, hopefully. More to come......
I still get butterflies sometimes. You're not alone. Hugs.
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