Monday, July 12, 2010

Only two more radiation treatments left.....

Only two more radiation treatments left. As I was thinking about this last night, I was contemplating all that was going on 23 treatments ago. Harrison's baseball championships. School field trips. Work projects. It seems like so long ago. And, I have been back to work for two months now. I can hardly believe it. Five weeks passed with hardly a blink of an eye.

We are a busy family. This past weekend, my brother was visiting from Portland. Also, Harrison's soccer team played in their first of several soccer tournaments. We had a lot of family time, as we tend to have at soccer tournaments and when my brother visits. It was really nice. One thing that has struck me funny over the course of the last week or so, in talking to people at the soccer tournament and such, is the amount of people who have no idea that I am currently undergoing radiation therapy. I guess that is good. Sometimes in my world, it is easy to get wrapped up in the hoopla that has been my family's life for the past nine months. It is usually all about me.

Admittedly, for the last week, I have been too tired to do much else other than sit on the couch, when I am not working or out and about at a family event. I have a bit more energy than I did through chemotherapy treatments, which is good. However, the intense guilt that results from not being able to accomplish what I would like to accomplish is unbearable at times. Still, I try to let others do for the kids, my house, etc. I am just not very good at it. I get frustrated when things are not done in the manner in which I think they should be, or in the time frame that I think they should be. Then, I do them myself. I just hope I am not driving people around me too crazy, ie. my husband. He is a keeper. (And I am probably driving him a lot crazy, though he would never admit it to me.) 

In any case, this phase of my treatment is coming to a close. They did tell me that I can expect my symptoms - which are mainly fatigue and the ugly rash that extends from my collar bone to my breast bone - to intensify after my radiation therapy ends. I am armed and ready.


  1. Its had to let go, but i bet you can learn to be better at it.

  2. I'm so happy to hear you only have 2 treatments left! Yahoo! Another step in this journey, over!! Love, Shelley