Fight. To engage in battle or in single combat; attempt to defend oneself against or to subdue, defeat, or destroy an adversary.
Fight to destroy an adversary.
This is what Marsi has been doing against cancer for just under three years. Fighting to not let cancer destroy her spirit and strength. Fighting to maintain her time on this earth as a wife, mother, daughter, sister, and woman. Fighting to slay the dragon, as she would say to me often, as we talked about still growing old together. My wife Marsi, is a warrior.
I wanted to write in her blog today to update everyone on her condition. Marsi so loved sharing herself and her battle with breast cancer through this blog that I did not want anyone to be left wondering what happen to her, as she has not been able to continue to write herself.
The medicine Marsi takes to keep the pain of cancer at bay has taken away her ability to see clearly and type on a keyboard. The cancer also has continued to grow, spreading across her liver and abdomine, as well as now being more prevalent in the lungs. Over the years, Chemotherapy seemed to have some affect against this terrible cancer, but with the cancer spreading to the liver and the liver being the organ that filters these harsh chemotherapy drugs from the body, Marsi's liver and body could not keep up the fight anymore. So today, with the recommendation of Marsi's Oncologist, we are looking into Hospice care.
Comfort and time is so precious to us now. We now understand that in life, it is the small things that matter the most. Holding her hand as she lays in bed, a quick soft kiss or smile from her beautiful face. This is my gold. This is my treasure. Strength is what she tells me I must have. Strength for my children, my family, and for myself to not let her passing destroy what we created together. Strength she tells me to have when she is the strong one. But I know I will have that strength and the kids and I will survive, because of all our wonderful family and friends. Family is the rock that gets you through it and friends are what keeps you from going crazy. To all our family and friends that have been there for Marsi and I, in anyway through this terrible fight, please know that we love you and thank you for everything.
With all this said, please comment and offer support through the comments section of this blog, so I can read them to Marsi and see her smile. Being positive and keeping the will to fight is everything to me and I need my girl to fight as long as she can. She is my strength, my love, and my world. She is my beautiful bride.
With all my heart, with all my soul, with all I am, I love you Marsi. --- Steven