It is hard to describe this feeling I have. I have never felt anything like it, nor do I expect to again. Tonight at dinner, while talking to Steve, I was finally able to put it into words.
Every minute of every day, I am barraged with support of all shapes, sizes, forms from all different types of people, friends, colleagues, family, friends of friends and even complete strangers. People have offered to help me with all aspects of my life. Things which we all take for granted every day. Things I would never ask for help with. Things that I hope I never need help with. It is overwhelming and wonderful all in the same breath.
The analogy I came up with tonight is that I have decided that I can never fall. It is like there is a large group of people surrounding my every move and my every need. Not physically but more in a spiritual sense. Almost like a family of shadows, raising me up, kind of like the song (my RCHSD colleagues know what I am talking about). This feeling of someone always being there to "catch" me gives me so much confidence and strength - too much to even put into words.
I know we all have our own religious beliefs - I definitely have mine, which I will not share here. But beyond religion, this support, for lack of a better term, is a gift I will cherish for my lifetime. From the bottom of my heart, I thank you all for your past and continued efforts on our behalf.